Sunday, April 8, 2012

I love my husband

Jon is an amazing man. He moved half way across the map, so that my MS wouldn't flare up so badly. He took on the responsibility of three daughters when he didn't have to. He married someone that more than likely won't be around more than a few years max.

Every day he makes sure that the girls and I have what we need. Even things we may not need but want. He takes the time to listen to me when I talk, that is a huge thing to me. Sometimes I don't have the words to put together to tell him why I am upset or hurt or whatever. He sits there and waits until I can try to piece enough words together to make him understand me.

No marriage is perfect, we all have our ups and downs. But when two people can talk through their issues, its as perfect of a relationship as you can get. Jon makes sure that we do just that. Yes we argue, but in the end we talk it out. We don't go to bed upset with the other. We always tell the other we love one another, because no matter what the day brings,we are in love with each other.

Jon my love -- I love you with everything I am. My heart and soul belong to you, my husband. No matter what we will face in this life, together we face it all. Thank you for being the husband that I have looked my entire life for. Thank you for loving me in ways I never thought possible. Thank you for being patient with me. I love you

Monday, March 19, 2012

It's official!

It is finally official! Jon and I are now legally married. We had the most special wedding I could have imagined. Jon looked amazing in his tux. I wore a white wedding gown for the first time ever. Our oldest and our youngest girls each sang a song during the ceremony. They did an awesome job! I am so proud of them for overcoming their fears of singing in public.

My good friend Dale is a minister so he performed the ceremony. Another friend is a photographer and offered to take our wedding pictures. My mother-in-law and sister-in-law did the cake. My father-in-law and brother catered our reception dinner.

Everything went over very well! I have never been happier in my entire life. Jon has been so amazing through all of my hysteria with wedding planning.

Four days after we were married we moved our new family from Illinois to Texas. It is one huge difference. We went from small hick town to huge metro area in a span of a two day drive. Jon drove the entire way and for the most part needed to be pried out of the truck at the end of our days drive.

We now live in a town where you don't have to drive two hours from home to go to a decent store. Instead you drive across the street to find almost anything your heart desires. Such a massive change. We are loving every second of our new hometown though.

Tomorrow we spend the day in search of our new home. Fun times. Can't wait to get settled and be able to finally relax.

I'll be back to posting more often as soon as I can after we get things in order again.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Another Day at home!

Yes that's right, another day at home! My sweet loving Jon is HOME! You have no idea how difficult it was to keep my mouth shut about him coming home. He has been home just two weeks now. We are still re-adjusting to having him home. And he is adjusting to being home as well.

We have just at three weeks until the wedding! I am so excited, I can't believe that we are finally going to be married. I never thought I would do the whole marriage thing again. But I am so very proud to know that he will be my husband until I take my last breath. I can not think of a better man to spend the rest of my life with. Jon IS the better half of my soul.

I don't know how much time I am going to have over the next few weeks for writing. So please forgive me if I don't keep this blog updated as often as I was before Jon came home. I will do my best to update as possible.

Monday, February 6, 2012

It's Been Forever

It feels like it has been forever since I posted anything here. My last post I made here, I wasn't dealing with my husbands deployment very well. Honestly it was hell during that week. Since that post, I have been running around with my head cut off so to speak.

My husbands grandmother/mother (long story) became very ill and passed away. I had to make a trip to Alabama for her funeral. I had a very difficult task of telling Jon that she was ill and another terrible task of telling him when she died. Having to tell him such bad news over the phone while he is still in Afghanistan was the most heart breaking thing I have had to do.

Now I have traveled across the US before, my first husband was a truck driver. I myself don't usually drive across country. This time though I had the girls with me and we drove from home to Atlanta GA. Then we had to go to Alabama. Last night we made the drive from Alabama back home. Eight hours in the rental van (which was totally cool) made me so tired.

The rental van was a 2012 Town & Country. It was completely decked out. Dual sliding doors that open and close at the push of a button. The back hatch door also operated with the push of a button. There was a built in LED flashlight! The seats; middle and back rows; folded into the floor. It had cup holders everywhere, it even had 110 volt hookups! We could plug my laptop in and let it charge going down the road. It had a built in DVD player too. We could upload music into the built in hard drive in the van so that we could have our own music. It had a built in backup camera, pop that baby in reverse and we could see on the screen what was behind us!

I fell in love with that rental van. It was THE bomb. Of course with so much technology it was pricey. I will never be able to afford such a luxury like that of my own. It sure felt awesome to be able to drive around in such comfort.

Anyway enough about the awesome van. We made it back home and only lost our way once. Which I thought was pretty darn good. We were so close to home when I somehow got turned around on the Parkway. I found my way back to the right direction after about thirty minutes. An eight hour trip took just over nine hours. Reason being, we stopped for over an hour and a half to have dinner. Otherwise we would have made it in under eight hours.

The girls are sitting enjoying their laptops right now. And I am doing some much needed catch up on my blogs. As for now, I am going to close  this post and try my best to get a decent nights sleep. It has been difficult in these last five months to sleep. I did have almost a week of amazing sleep while in Alabama though.

Until next time friends, take care.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

I'm so over this deployment

We still have a long way to go before we are supposed to see the end of this deployment. I am already so very tired of it. I'm so tired of Jon not being able to be home where he belongs. I'm sick to death of all the worry every day on if he is okay. I knew this would be difficult but I never imagined it would be this much hell.

I'm ready for Jon to be home, now. I hate not having him here where I know he is safe. Deployments suck.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Friday Jan. 13th, 2012

This evening I have been thinking back to the night that I first met Jon. We had such a good time just sitting around talking while we waited for the fireworks display to start. During the display we stood there oohing and ahhing over all the pretty colors and still carried on a conversation. Once the grandstand cleared out we too left the stand, only we went under the stand to sit and talk and let the girls use their sparklers.Oh how I wish Jon were here and we could be sitting there at our park talking the night away again.

On Wednesday the week we met, I met his parents for the first time. I had talked to his dad from my front door the night before, long enough to thank him for bringing Jon over. Jon and I sat and talked for hours. We learned so much about each other that night. On Wednesday we went to his house, the girls enjoyed Jon's cooking just a little too much. Jon and I spent hours just laying in his room talking.

Shortly before his mom and dad got home, I was getting ready to take the girls home. When he talked to his mom a short time later, he asked me to stay and meet his parents. My nerves were a wreck, it felt like being in high school all over again. I hadn't had to meet a man's parents in a very long time. It was a strange feeling.

It turned out that my knotted stomach was for nothing. His mom and dad were so easy to talk to. After a couple of hours, the girls and I headed home. It was strange because for some reason I felt like part of me was missing. Jon and I texted and talked most of the night away.

Most people would say that we moved way too fast. In less than a week's time, the girls and I had moved in with Jon and his parents. Just a little over a week after we met, Jon had to head out for training. He was gone for three weeks. When he made it back home from training, we got engaged. He was home just over a month then had to leave for his last training before deploying.

He spent the next month and a half in Texas training. Before he was sent over to Afghanistan, I was able to go to Texas to spend four days with him. We had such a nice time. We didn't do much really other than drive around. Although we went to the movies one evening, and on another evening we spent a couple of hours at a club.

For once the focus was just on us. We didn't have the girls we had to worry about, we didn't have a ton of things to do. We just had each other and time to just relax. I had to take Jon back to his base before I had to leave Texas to make the trip home. I hated saying goodbye, I knew it would be many months before I was able to see him again.

These last three months without Jon home has been difficult. There are days when all I want to do is cry. Then there are days that are easier to deal with. November was the hardest month of my life. I had to get through a horrible experience without him here.

December found me focused on the girls and their Christmas gifts. We spent Christmas Eve with my Aunt and Uncle. Christmas Day was so very special, we were able to spend Christmas morning with Jon on Skype. It was the most awesome feeling in the world to spend that holiday with him. Even though he was half way across the world, he made that day special for the girls and I.

Jon and I may have only been together for six months, but I feel like I have been with him my whole life. Having Jon overseas is difficult, but it has brought us so much closer together. We knew from the beginning that communication was the most important part of a relationship. Talking is all we have with him overseas. There isn't anything to get in the way of that.

We used to spend hours on the phone when he was in his training before he headed to war. Now we don't have the luxury of talking for hours most of the time. Once in a while we are able to do just that on Skype. It makes my day go so much faster when I am able to spend some time just reconnecting with him. No one understands just how much communication matters until they don't have it. We do.

Jon,

I miss you so much my love. Sometimes things are quiet in this part of the house, and I am able to just sit and remember. Tonight has been one of those nights, where all I am doing is just thinking back  to before you had to leave. Remembering how much fun we had just sitting on the front porch talking. I miss those days so badly.

I can't wait until the day that you are back home, and we can just sit and hold one another and talk like we used to do. I love you so very much

Until later my love

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Tues. Jan 10th, 2012

Well here it is almost Wednesday already. Where has this week gone? Most of it has seemed to be flying by, until this evening that is. This evening has been a really slow night. What have I done interesting lately? Not much.

Today mom colored Faith's hair red! She has such beautiful hair. It's long and RED now. Who knew it would take 3 or more boxes of coloring to do her hair? It needed four boxes to get the right shade of red all over it. Wal-Mart ran out of the color the other night when we picked up my two boxes. So now we must wait for them to get it back again. Then we redo her hair.

She has red hair, mine is a red/pink. I love it. She got a little upset with me today because her hair isn't as light as she wanted it. I refuse to bleach hers for fear of it damaging her hair. I love Faith Rose's hair and I would hate to see it damaged at all. We'll see though, I know she wants brighter red. It's not easy to get when you have such dark hair to begin with.

That's all for tonight, I have to get to bed at a decent time tonight.