Being married is such a wonderful gift. Having a husband like Jon, is my gift from God. Everyone has issues come up in their lives that makes life difficult. If one is lucky, you have someone by your side that makes those things a bit easier to deal with.
Jon is that someone for me. I don't have any idea how I would face my life without his love next to me. I have days with my MS that I can't move much at all. Days where I feel like nothing is going my way. Jon is always right there with me, helping me in any way that I need help. Sometimes that gets annoying, but for the most part; I am blessed and know it.
There are days when I can't get out of bed. It's hard but unfortunately it is part of my life living with MS. Jon is always there to help me from room to room. I don't know how he manages to make me feel better on those days, but he always does.
Without him, I would have given up already. Where would I be without his help and his support? I don't know, but I can tell you it wouldn't be in a very good place. I am so blessed, our daughters are blessed to have a dad in their lives that love them the way Jon does.
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Monday, May 21, 2012
Sunday, April 8, 2012
I love my husband
Jon is an amazing man. He moved half way across the map, so that my MS wouldn't flare up so badly. He took on the responsibility of three daughters when he didn't have to. He married someone that more than likely won't be around more than a few years max.
Every day he makes sure that the girls and I have what we need. Even things we may not need but want. He takes the time to listen to me when I talk, that is a huge thing to me. Sometimes I don't have the words to put together to tell him why I am upset or hurt or whatever. He sits there and waits until I can try to piece enough words together to make him understand me.
No marriage is perfect, we all have our ups and downs. But when two people can talk through their issues, its as perfect of a relationship as you can get. Jon makes sure that we do just that. Yes we argue, but in the end we talk it out. We don't go to bed upset with the other. We always tell the other we love one another, because no matter what the day brings,we are in love with each other.
Jon my love -- I love you with everything I am. My heart and soul belong to you, my husband. No matter what we will face in this life, together we face it all. Thank you for being the husband that I have looked my entire life for. Thank you for loving me in ways I never thought possible. Thank you for being patient with me. I love you
Every day he makes sure that the girls and I have what we need. Even things we may not need but want. He takes the time to listen to me when I talk, that is a huge thing to me. Sometimes I don't have the words to put together to tell him why I am upset or hurt or whatever. He sits there and waits until I can try to piece enough words together to make him understand me.
No marriage is perfect, we all have our ups and downs. But when two people can talk through their issues, its as perfect of a relationship as you can get. Jon makes sure that we do just that. Yes we argue, but in the end we talk it out. We don't go to bed upset with the other. We always tell the other we love one another, because no matter what the day brings,we are in love with each other.
Jon my love -- I love you with everything I am. My heart and soul belong to you, my husband. No matter what we will face in this life, together we face it all. Thank you for being the husband that I have looked my entire life for. Thank you for loving me in ways I never thought possible. Thank you for being patient with me. I love you
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Another Day at home!
Yes that's right, another day at home! My sweet loving Jon is HOME! You have no idea how difficult it was to keep my mouth shut about him coming home. He has been home just two weeks now. We are still re-adjusting to having him home. And he is adjusting to being home as well.
We have just at three weeks until the wedding! I am so excited, I can't believe that we are finally going to be married. I never thought I would do the whole marriage thing again. But I am so very proud to know that he will be my husband until I take my last breath. I can not think of a better man to spend the rest of my life with. Jon IS the better half of my soul.
I don't know how much time I am going to have over the next few weeks for writing. So please forgive me if I don't keep this blog updated as often as I was before Jon came home. I will do my best to update as possible.
We have just at three weeks until the wedding! I am so excited, I can't believe that we are finally going to be married. I never thought I would do the whole marriage thing again. But I am so very proud to know that he will be my husband until I take my last breath. I can not think of a better man to spend the rest of my life with. Jon IS the better half of my soul.
I don't know how much time I am going to have over the next few weeks for writing. So please forgive me if I don't keep this blog updated as often as I was before Jon came home. I will do my best to update as possible.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Friday Jan. 13th, 2012
This evening I have been thinking back to the night that I first met Jon. We had such a good time just sitting around talking while we waited for the fireworks display to start. During the display we stood there oohing and ahhing over all the pretty colors and still carried on a conversation. Once the grandstand cleared out we too left the stand, only we went under the stand to sit and talk and let the girls use their sparklers.Oh how I wish Jon were here and we could be sitting there at our park talking the night away again.
On Wednesday the week we met, I met his parents for the first time. I had talked to his dad from my front door the night before, long enough to thank him for bringing Jon over. Jon and I sat and talked for hours. We learned so much about each other that night. On Wednesday we went to his house, the girls enjoyed Jon's cooking just a little too much. Jon and I spent hours just laying in his room talking.
Shortly before his mom and dad got home, I was getting ready to take the girls home. When he talked to his mom a short time later, he asked me to stay and meet his parents. My nerves were a wreck, it felt like being in high school all over again. I hadn't had to meet a man's parents in a very long time. It was a strange feeling.
It turned out that my knotted stomach was for nothing. His mom and dad were so easy to talk to. After a couple of hours, the girls and I headed home. It was strange because for some reason I felt like part of me was missing. Jon and I texted and talked most of the night away.
Most people would say that we moved way too fast. In less than a week's time, the girls and I had moved in with Jon and his parents. Just a little over a week after we met, Jon had to head out for training. He was gone for three weeks. When he made it back home from training, we got engaged. He was home just over a month then had to leave for his last training before deploying.
He spent the next month and a half in Texas training. Before he was sent over to Afghanistan, I was able to go to Texas to spend four days with him. We had such a nice time. We didn't do much really other than drive around. Although we went to the movies one evening, and on another evening we spent a couple of hours at a club.
For once the focus was just on us. We didn't have the girls we had to worry about, we didn't have a ton of things to do. We just had each other and time to just relax. I had to take Jon back to his base before I had to leave Texas to make the trip home. I hated saying goodbye, I knew it would be many months before I was able to see him again.
These last three months without Jon home has been difficult. There are days when all I want to do is cry. Then there are days that are easier to deal with. November was the hardest month of my life. I had to get through a horrible experience without him here.
December found me focused on the girls and their Christmas gifts. We spent Christmas Eve with my Aunt and Uncle. Christmas Day was so very special, we were able to spend Christmas morning with Jon on Skype. It was the most awesome feeling in the world to spend that holiday with him. Even though he was half way across the world, he made that day special for the girls and I.
Jon and I may have only been together for six months, but I feel like I have been with him my whole life. Having Jon overseas is difficult, but it has brought us so much closer together. We knew from the beginning that communication was the most important part of a relationship. Talking is all we have with him overseas. There isn't anything to get in the way of that.
We used to spend hours on the phone when he was in his training before he headed to war. Now we don't have the luxury of talking for hours most of the time. Once in a while we are able to do just that on Skype. It makes my day go so much faster when I am able to spend some time just reconnecting with him. No one understands just how much communication matters until they don't have it. We do.
Jon,
I miss you so much my love. Sometimes things are quiet in this part of the house, and I am able to just sit and remember. Tonight has been one of those nights, where all I am doing is just thinking back to before you had to leave. Remembering how much fun we had just sitting on the front porch talking. I miss those days so badly.
I can't wait until the day that you are back home, and we can just sit and hold one another and talk like we used to do. I love you so very much
Until later my love
On Wednesday the week we met, I met his parents for the first time. I had talked to his dad from my front door the night before, long enough to thank him for bringing Jon over. Jon and I sat and talked for hours. We learned so much about each other that night. On Wednesday we went to his house, the girls enjoyed Jon's cooking just a little too much. Jon and I spent hours just laying in his room talking.
Shortly before his mom and dad got home, I was getting ready to take the girls home. When he talked to his mom a short time later, he asked me to stay and meet his parents. My nerves were a wreck, it felt like being in high school all over again. I hadn't had to meet a man's parents in a very long time. It was a strange feeling.
It turned out that my knotted stomach was for nothing. His mom and dad were so easy to talk to. After a couple of hours, the girls and I headed home. It was strange because for some reason I felt like part of me was missing. Jon and I texted and talked most of the night away.
Most people would say that we moved way too fast. In less than a week's time, the girls and I had moved in with Jon and his parents. Just a little over a week after we met, Jon had to head out for training. He was gone for three weeks. When he made it back home from training, we got engaged. He was home just over a month then had to leave for his last training before deploying.
He spent the next month and a half in Texas training. Before he was sent over to Afghanistan, I was able to go to Texas to spend four days with him. We had such a nice time. We didn't do much really other than drive around. Although we went to the movies one evening, and on another evening we spent a couple of hours at a club.
For once the focus was just on us. We didn't have the girls we had to worry about, we didn't have a ton of things to do. We just had each other and time to just relax. I had to take Jon back to his base before I had to leave Texas to make the trip home. I hated saying goodbye, I knew it would be many months before I was able to see him again.
These last three months without Jon home has been difficult. There are days when all I want to do is cry. Then there are days that are easier to deal with. November was the hardest month of my life. I had to get through a horrible experience without him here.
December found me focused on the girls and their Christmas gifts. We spent Christmas Eve with my Aunt and Uncle. Christmas Day was so very special, we were able to spend Christmas morning with Jon on Skype. It was the most awesome feeling in the world to spend that holiday with him. Even though he was half way across the world, he made that day special for the girls and I.
Jon and I may have only been together for six months, but I feel like I have been with him my whole life. Having Jon overseas is difficult, but it has brought us so much closer together. We knew from the beginning that communication was the most important part of a relationship. Talking is all we have with him overseas. There isn't anything to get in the way of that.
We used to spend hours on the phone when he was in his training before he headed to war. Now we don't have the luxury of talking for hours most of the time. Once in a while we are able to do just that on Skype. It makes my day go so much faster when I am able to spend some time just reconnecting with him. No one understands just how much communication matters until they don't have it. We do.
Jon,
I miss you so much my love. Sometimes things are quiet in this part of the house, and I am able to just sit and remember. Tonight has been one of those nights, where all I am doing is just thinking back to before you had to leave. Remembering how much fun we had just sitting on the front porch talking. I miss those days so badly.
I can't wait until the day that you are back home, and we can just sit and hold one another and talk like we used to do. I love you so very much
Until later my love
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Sunday Jan. 1st,2012! Happy New Year
Happy New Year! I hope each and every one of you got your kiss in at midnight. May you all be blessed with a terrific New Year. Be careful and don't Drink and Drive.
My New Years kiss will come later in the year. But oh how I look forward to that amazing day.
Jon my love,
I love you so very much. All I thought about tonight was what we would be doing if you had been home. I miss being in your arms baby. This year will be a long one, but I hope that it passes quickly.
I love you, Happy New Year baby
My New Years kiss will come later in the year. But oh how I look forward to that amazing day.
Jon my love,
I love you so very much. All I thought about tonight was what we would be doing if you had been home. I miss being in your arms baby. This year will be a long one, but I hope that it passes quickly.
I love you, Happy New Year baby
Friday, December 30, 2011
Friday Dec. 30th, 2011
Tonight the girls, mom and I had PSP class. I taught all four of them how to use masks, make animated text and add borders and frames to their pictures! It was so much fun. The girls had a great time, and grandma took notes so she could remember the steps later. For me it was fun, I had to remember the steps without my computer in front of me. Usually I'm sitting at my laptop and don't think about the steps to do any of it. This time I didn't take my laptop to the kitchen. I still enjoyed it though.
So tomorrow night is the big night of the year; New Year's Eve. My resolution? To try to remember that I am not the only one that has a gaping hole in my life where Jon should be. Is that my only one? Nope, I hope to have lost 15 pounds by April. How do I plan on making that small hope into reality? Usually starting in March I hit the streets walking, this year I plan on hitting the gym until it gets nicer weather. Then I will take to the streets to enjoy all the views of our city.
Fifteen pounds and I have just at 4 months to accomplish that goal. I can do that! Here I come gym!
I love you Jon,
Until later
So tomorrow night is the big night of the year; New Year's Eve. My resolution? To try to remember that I am not the only one that has a gaping hole in my life where Jon should be. Is that my only one? Nope, I hope to have lost 15 pounds by April. How do I plan on making that small hope into reality? Usually starting in March I hit the streets walking, this year I plan on hitting the gym until it gets nicer weather. Then I will take to the streets to enjoy all the views of our city.
Fifteen pounds and I have just at 4 months to accomplish that goal. I can do that! Here I come gym!
I love you Jon,
Until later
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
My Darling Jon...
Yesterday, today, and tomorrow; you are always in my heart. Every day is spent thinking of you and about you. Our future is bright thanks to you, there will never again be dark skies. I love you
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Tuesday Dec. 27th, 2011
Well, how was your Christmas? Ours turned out to be awesome! My sweet Jon was so excited about what we had gotten the girls, that he couldn't wait to see their faces light up. He had me wake them at 4:30 AM our time, so that he was able to be on Skype watching them unwrap their gifts. Three sleepy young ladies all just wanting to crawl back into bed, didn't make for shinning faces. It was almost a let down at the time. That is until they woke back up later in the day and it hit them just what their dad had done for them.
Jon had planned for months what he wanted their gift from him to be. He got each of them a new laptop! They had never had their own before. They had been using their grandma's laptops. Now they don't have too. They also received a digital camera from me for each of them. Now they don't have to play with grandma's really expensive camera anymore. Along with laptops and cameras they each got new headphones with mic so that they can Skype with their dad and listen to music without interfering with the others. They each got a new mouse for their laptops.
All in all it was so much fun seeing their reactions after they woke up later in the day. My gift this year? Being able to have Jon here with us; even if it was via Skype. We talked for hours after the girls went back to bed. I finally went to bed after 8 AM Christmas morning. I didn't care, I wasn't sleepy I wanted to spend as much time as I could talking with Jon. Having him watching the girls unwrap their gifts almost felt like he was home.
That was the BEST gift he could have given me.I will never forget this Christmas. Who needs expensive or for that matter inexpensive material things? Not me, just give me my family all around me and I am one very happy lady. There aren't many Christmas's left that the kids will all be at home together with me at the same time. Before long they will be grown and have more important things to do than spend it with mom. I cherish all these little times we get to have together.
I'm looking forward to next Christmas when Jon will be back home, and by my side as our girls open their gifts. I will not forget to thank my lucky stars that my husband is home safe next year. Every day I'll have with him and the girls together will be my miracle.
Jon love,
Thank you for spending our Christmas morning with us. It meant the world to me to have you able to see the girls opening their gifts. I appreciate the fact that you took the time to watch the girls opening their Christmas gifts, out of your busy day. I love you so much for spending a few hours with me; it made my day so much brighter. It's all those small things that you do, that make me so very proud of you. I know it was hard on you watching the girls Christmas morning. I know it was hard not being able to be here in person.You have no idea how much that meant to me and the girls that you did that for them and me.
You still continue to amaze me, I appreciate the man that you are. I love the man that you continue to show me that you are. I admire that about you, you have a way of always putting us first and making sure we know that we matter to you. I'm so very proud of you love.
I love you
Until later love...
Jon had planned for months what he wanted their gift from him to be. He got each of them a new laptop! They had never had their own before. They had been using their grandma's laptops. Now they don't have too. They also received a digital camera from me for each of them. Now they don't have to play with grandma's really expensive camera anymore. Along with laptops and cameras they each got new headphones with mic so that they can Skype with their dad and listen to music without interfering with the others. They each got a new mouse for their laptops.
All in all it was so much fun seeing their reactions after they woke up later in the day. My gift this year? Being able to have Jon here with us; even if it was via Skype. We talked for hours after the girls went back to bed. I finally went to bed after 8 AM Christmas morning. I didn't care, I wasn't sleepy I wanted to spend as much time as I could talking with Jon. Having him watching the girls unwrap their gifts almost felt like he was home.
That was the BEST gift he could have given me.I will never forget this Christmas. Who needs expensive or for that matter inexpensive material things? Not me, just give me my family all around me and I am one very happy lady. There aren't many Christmas's left that the kids will all be at home together with me at the same time. Before long they will be grown and have more important things to do than spend it with mom. I cherish all these little times we get to have together.
I'm looking forward to next Christmas when Jon will be back home, and by my side as our girls open their gifts. I will not forget to thank my lucky stars that my husband is home safe next year. Every day I'll have with him and the girls together will be my miracle.
Jon love,
Thank you for spending our Christmas morning with us. It meant the world to me to have you able to see the girls opening their gifts. I appreciate the fact that you took the time to watch the girls opening their Christmas gifts, out of your busy day. I love you so much for spending a few hours with me; it made my day so much brighter. It's all those small things that you do, that make me so very proud of you. I know it was hard on you watching the girls Christmas morning. I know it was hard not being able to be here in person.You have no idea how much that meant to me and the girls that you did that for them and me.
You still continue to amaze me, I appreciate the man that you are. I love the man that you continue to show me that you are. I admire that about you, you have a way of always putting us first and making sure we know that we matter to you. I'm so very proud of you love.
I love you
Until later love...
Friday, December 23, 2011
A Poem From my Daughter Rose 12-23-11
This poem was written by Jon and I's 14 year old daughter. I have always told her that she has an "old" soul. She knows and understands life much better than most adults do. She has lived the life of an 80 year old in her short life.
Here is part of her views:
Here is part of her views:
America we stand
America we stand America we breathe America all I feel and all I see.
The sky so blue the grass so green America we are free.
The day so blue when your not here The night so lonely and filled with tears.
I know you are, fighting for our country, miss America, we are here.
The song so loud the water so clear I wish that you could be near.
Today we wait worlds apart as the war goes on I can imagine your fear.
The flag so tall the bell so gold What you hold deep inside is very sad and very bold.
Our American soldiers, our hero's at war, our mothers and daughters, our fathers and son's.
Tonight the stars are very dim the dogs howl with pride and I wish I was by your side.
Tomorrow I will wake, and hope for your sake the war we all fight, deep inside will be small left over movements, from this big earthquake.
The moment I see you standing so proud in front of me on American ground I will bow and smile and say, Our great American your home to stay.
America we stand. ~Faith Rose~
She is an awesome writer! I love reading everything she writes. If you want to follow her blog, her link is on the left; A Soldier's Rose. She would love to hear from others what they think of her writing. Keep it positive please, she is only 14.
As for me I'll be back on Monday December 26th with an updated blog. I'm going to try my best to enjoy the next two days with my family. Merry Christmas to you all and may your holiday be a safe one.
Jon,
Christmas is here baby. It's hard to believe that I will be spending it without you this year. I know that you are overseas, but at times it feels like you are right here with me. I hope that you are right here with me the next couple of days. I'm going to need your strength to pull me through this holiday. Remember you have my heart right there next to you every moment you are there. I love you baby, stay safe my love
Until later love,
Your wife
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Thursday Dec. 22nd, 2011
As 2011 rolls to a close, I have been thinking and over-thinking what this year has meant to my life. I'm not one that usually thinks to much about a year closing and another beginning. For the most part each year just seems another year closer to my kids being grown, and my getting still older than I am. I guess you could say that I am a pessimist.
This year however, I have had so many things change. Some of which I am so extremely grateful for, others I could have done without. I'm not really one for lists either; so I won't bore anyone with a list of top ten or bottom ten. Most of you here reading this blog will already know my top and bottom of my "list".
Meeting Jon was absolutely the top of my list of amazing changes for the year. I know having Jon in my life will forever be the number one blessing every year for the rest of my life. He has given my life so many things. You never know how empty your life really is until you meet that one person that fills your life to an over flowing fountain. Life never seemed to give me a break. I learned this year from meeting Jon that it wasn't life that was short changing me, it was me. Jon has this way of making me see that life can't screw with you unless you let it.
This year however, I have had so many things change. Some of which I am so extremely grateful for, others I could have done without. I'm not really one for lists either; so I won't bore anyone with a list of top ten or bottom ten. Most of you here reading this blog will already know my top and bottom of my "list".
Meeting Jon was absolutely the top of my list of amazing changes for the year. I know having Jon in my life will forever be the number one blessing every year for the rest of my life. He has given my life so many things. You never know how empty your life really is until you meet that one person that fills your life to an over flowing fountain. Life never seemed to give me a break. I learned this year from meeting Jon that it wasn't life that was short changing me, it was me. Jon has this way of making me see that life can't screw with you unless you let it.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Tuesday Dec. 20th, 2011
Christmas is almost here! Okay, really it is here. Last minute things to take care of. Jon and I can't wait to see the looks on our girls faces. That to me is huge part of Christmas. It is about seeing the look in your children's eyes, about family and being together. Our family is a little spread out this year, but our hearts are still very close together.
As we work to get past this holiday, our hearts here at home are trying to not let our sadness rule our holiday. Jon doesn't want us to let our missing him to cast a shadow on the girls day. Some where in the back of an army duffel bag, I will pull out my happy face and get through this.
On the up side, the girls and I are going to spend Christmas Eve with my Aunt and Uncle. Hopefully my little brother will also show up as he said he would. I so hope that he does, I have yet to meet my nephew. It's going to seem so strange going to visit with them as last time we were there, Jon was with us. It felt so perfect having Jon at my family's home. This time he can't be there although he sure wishes he could be. He has been looking forward to meeting my little brother.
There will be lots of photos taken, and maybe a video or two. I want for it to be as if Jon were right there as we all remember why we have this freedom to enjoy the holidays as family.
Well, I have more work to get done before Christmas morning. Who knew it would take so much prep work? Where is Calgon when you want it?
My dear Love,
My heart aches for the day you will return to us. Each day feels an eternity. I promise to make Christmas a day the girls will enjoy. My Christmas will get here when you make it home. I love you so very much love. Be safe, be well and know that my heart is with you.
Until later love,
As we work to get past this holiday, our hearts here at home are trying to not let our sadness rule our holiday. Jon doesn't want us to let our missing him to cast a shadow on the girls day. Some where in the back of an army duffel bag, I will pull out my happy face and get through this.
On the up side, the girls and I are going to spend Christmas Eve with my Aunt and Uncle. Hopefully my little brother will also show up as he said he would. I so hope that he does, I have yet to meet my nephew. It's going to seem so strange going to visit with them as last time we were there, Jon was with us. It felt so perfect having Jon at my family's home. This time he can't be there although he sure wishes he could be. He has been looking forward to meeting my little brother.
There will be lots of photos taken, and maybe a video or two. I want for it to be as if Jon were right there as we all remember why we have this freedom to enjoy the holidays as family.
Well, I have more work to get done before Christmas morning. Who knew it would take so much prep work? Where is Calgon when you want it?
My dear Love,
My heart aches for the day you will return to us. Each day feels an eternity. I promise to make Christmas a day the girls will enjoy. My Christmas will get here when you make it home. I love you so very much love. Be safe, be well and know that my heart is with you.
Until later love,
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Thursday Dec. 15th, 2011
Well tonight is one of those nights where sleep isn't an option for awhile. We all have those nights where we can't sleep for one reason or another. I have been having more than my share of them lately. One would think that having children would be a part of what keeps me from sleep. However they have never kept me up.
I can't even blame my insomnia on Jon being overseas. Of course I think about him all the time, even when I am sleeping my thoughts turn to him. However my nerves about him being there aren't the cause of sleepless nights right now anyway.
So what keeps me from sleeping? It starts off with a muscle twitch here or there. Then it progresses to not being able to feel my limbs. Usually my legs, but on occasion my arms. After the numbing feeling begins, it's the not being able to MAKE my limbs move. No matter how hard I focus on trying to get them to move, they just refuse.
I can't even blame my insomnia on Jon being overseas. Of course I think about him all the time, even when I am sleeping my thoughts turn to him. However my nerves about him being there aren't the cause of sleepless nights right now anyway.
So what keeps me from sleeping? It starts off with a muscle twitch here or there. Then it progresses to not being able to feel my limbs. Usually my legs, but on occasion my arms. After the numbing feeling begins, it's the not being able to MAKE my limbs move. No matter how hard I focus on trying to get them to move, they just refuse.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Facebook and My Love Wedding Ring.com
December 12th, 2011
I don't ordinarily post links here to Websites around the internet. However today is an exception. I Love Facebook for many reasons, one being that is how I kept in contact with Jon when we first started seeing each other.
I had the pleasure of "Liking" a wonderful Page called "My Love Wedding Ring". They have some of the most gorgeous jewelry I have ever laid eyes on. They have a Holiday Sweepstakes going on right now. Twelve days of Christmas. I entered the Contest hoping to win matching Wedding bands for Jon and I. That part of the contest you were to enter what you would have inscribed inside each band.
The inscriptions that I came up with were as follows:
For his band: Two hearts intertwined
For my band: Will forever beat as one
The voting for those entries is still on going so if you want to help a couple out that is just starting out you can go vote for Jon and I by clicking on this link:
https://apps.facebook.com/contestshq/contests/169245/voteable_entries/35924654
Now besides the fact that they have stunning jewelry I have one other reason for loving them as much as I do. They made me a winner of one of their gorgeous rings! I was the winner on Day 4 of the giveaway. This is the stunning ring I won and it came in the mail today!
That is a stunning Amethyst and diamond ring! That small gold band you see there? That is my amazing engagement ring that Jon let me help pick out. I asked for something small and tasteful. Nothing to big as I am always afraid that I will lose it or worse it would be stolen. I am so very proud to be wearing my engagement ring.
Marrying my true best friend and love of my life is a privilege that I will never forget. I am so very lucky and blessed to be able to marry my soul mate.
Jon my love,
I will never forget the evening we talked about getting married. I was so thrilled. When you came back home after your training and we went in search of the perfect ring, I was excited. The night you asked me to marry you is a night I will treasure for the rest of my life. The day we are able to say I do, will be the greatest day of my life.
I know without any doubt that I am so privileged to be able to marry my best friend, the man of my dreams. I look forward to you getting home so that we can finally say in front of God and anyone there, that our hearts will forever beat as one.
I love you my sweet love
Until later love
I don't ordinarily post links here to Websites around the internet. However today is an exception. I Love Facebook for many reasons, one being that is how I kept in contact with Jon when we first started seeing each other.
I had the pleasure of "Liking" a wonderful Page called "My Love Wedding Ring". They have some of the most gorgeous jewelry I have ever laid eyes on. They have a Holiday Sweepstakes going on right now. Twelve days of Christmas. I entered the Contest hoping to win matching Wedding bands for Jon and I. That part of the contest you were to enter what you would have inscribed inside each band.
The inscriptions that I came up with were as follows:
For his band: Two hearts intertwined
For my band: Will forever beat as one
The voting for those entries is still on going so if you want to help a couple out that is just starting out you can go vote for Jon and I by clicking on this link:
https://apps.facebook.com/contestshq/contests/169245/voteable_entries/35924654
Now besides the fact that they have stunning jewelry I have one other reason for loving them as much as I do. They made me a winner of one of their gorgeous rings! I was the winner on Day 4 of the giveaway. This is the stunning ring I won and it came in the mail today!
That is a stunning Amethyst and diamond ring! That small gold band you see there? That is my amazing engagement ring that Jon let me help pick out. I asked for something small and tasteful. Nothing to big as I am always afraid that I will lose it or worse it would be stolen. I am so very proud to be wearing my engagement ring.
Marrying my true best friend and love of my life is a privilege that I will never forget. I am so very lucky and blessed to be able to marry my soul mate.
Jon my love,
I will never forget the evening we talked about getting married. I was so thrilled. When you came back home after your training and we went in search of the perfect ring, I was excited. The night you asked me to marry you is a night I will treasure for the rest of my life. The day we are able to say I do, will be the greatest day of my life.
I know without any doubt that I am so privileged to be able to marry my best friend, the man of my dreams. I look forward to you getting home so that we can finally say in front of God and anyone there, that our hearts will forever beat as one.
I love you my sweet love
Until later love
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Saturday Dec. 10th, 2011
Well it's been a few days since I posted last. I haven't been in the mood to do too much lately. I thought staying busy would help. The first day or so that I tried to it did help. Now though, not so much. It seems like no matter what I do or how much, I'm still missing Jon more every day.
I have intentionally stayed away from watching the news; for good reason. Seeing that we have lost yet another troop is heart breaking. It also makes one worry even more than you usually do with having a loved one overseas. Tonight however, I read a news article where we lost three troops. The part of that besides the obvious, was that they were from Ft. Bliss. Or had at least trained there.
I have intentionally stayed away from watching the news; for good reason. Seeing that we have lost yet another troop is heart breaking. It also makes one worry even more than you usually do with having a loved one overseas. Tonight however, I read a news article where we lost three troops. The part of that besides the obvious, was that they were from Ft. Bliss. Or had at least trained there.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Stand Beside Our Soldiers 11/29/11
This week has gone a little easier than the previous weeks have. That is in part to the fact that I am trying to get past where my head has been stuck. I won't apologize for how I have felt since the loss of our twins. I will however apologize for how I made others feel because of my feelings.
This week I have begun the long process of trying to figure out where I fit into this whole military life. With not being "legally" married to Jon, I don't fit into the category of "family". Yeah um okay whatever. Yes the military has their own rules and regulations. However they need to step up and realize that "family" involves more than parents, spouses, and kids. Family includes; girlfriends, fiancee's, grandparents and the list goes on and on.
This week I have begun the long process of trying to figure out where I fit into this whole military life. With not being "legally" married to Jon, I don't fit into the category of "family". Yeah um okay whatever. Yes the military has their own rules and regulations. However they need to step up and realize that "family" involves more than parents, spouses, and kids. Family includes; girlfriends, fiancee's, grandparents and the list goes on and on.
Monday, November 28, 2011
Missing My Man
There isn't a lot to post about today. It's been a dreadful day. Nasty rainy and cold. Spent the biggest part of my day in bed. Rain and cold = pain.
Knowing that the Holidays are coming quickly and my soldier will be overseas also makes for a long and lonely winter. Knowing that he has it thousands of times worse than I do makes me wanna cry. Jon deserves the best and I know he doesn't get it over there. That makes me sad beyond words.
Knowing that our girls will be so excited about Christmas and yet also sad that their dad isn't here, breaks my heart. Jon is a terrific dad and our girls love him so much. We know he loves them too and that is the part that makes this whole situation so sad. He deserves to be able to be here with the girls and they deserve to have their dad here with them. We know he wants to be here but can't be right now. And that alone makes this even harder.
Knowing that the Holidays are coming quickly and my soldier will be overseas also makes for a long and lonely winter. Knowing that he has it thousands of times worse than I do makes me wanna cry. Jon deserves the best and I know he doesn't get it over there. That makes me sad beyond words.
Knowing that our girls will be so excited about Christmas and yet also sad that their dad isn't here, breaks my heart. Jon is a terrific dad and our girls love him so much. We know he loves them too and that is the part that makes this whole situation so sad. He deserves to be able to be here with the girls and they deserve to have their dad here with them. We know he wants to be here but can't be right now. And that alone makes this even harder.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Wednesday Nov. 23rd, 2011
I didn't write yesterday at all. I have not been feeling very good the last two days. Well really it's been more like a few weeks but; the last two days has been impossible. Between dealing with emotional issues that you all are aware of already and; having a medical problem that is becoming more of a problem I have been downright miserable.
Let me explain just a little here. I have MS- Multiple Sclerosis. For those that don't know what MS is let me help explain. MS is an autoimmune disease that affects the brain and spinal cord. It affects women more so than men. It is usually diagnosed between the ages of 20 and 40.
Here is a link where you can learn more about MS-
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001747/
Just a few of the symptoms that I have been suffering from lately include:
Loss of Balance
Muscles Spasms
Pain and Numbness in arms and legs
Problems getting my Legs to move in the mornings
Feeling like my hands and feet are on fire
Memory Loss
Dizziness
So Sleepy it isn't funny.
Let me explain just a little here. I have MS- Multiple Sclerosis. For those that don't know what MS is let me help explain. MS is an autoimmune disease that affects the brain and spinal cord. It affects women more so than men. It is usually diagnosed between the ages of 20 and 40.
Here is a link where you can learn more about MS-
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001747/
Just a few of the symptoms that I have been suffering from lately include:
Loss of Balance
Muscles Spasms
Pain and Numbness in arms and legs
Problems getting my Legs to move in the mornings
Feeling like my hands and feet are on fire
Memory Loss
Dizziness
So Sleepy it isn't funny.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Monday Nov. 21st, 2011
The days just seem to keep getting harder instead of easier. I don't know how much more I can take right now. My nerves are shot. My heart can't take much more heartache. Each day that moves me forward also seems to knock me back a few steps. When does it start to get easier?
This morning started out about normal. I knew that I had a doctors appointment today so I got ready and left. The doctor that I went to see was my old doctor. I was supposed to see a new lady but she was called out of the office so my old doctor took my appointment time for her.
The lab tests came back on twin B today. Unfortunately there wasn't much that the test proved. They proved that there was no abnormal defects in little Haylee. The tests couldn't determine what caused her heart to stop or if it had stopped prior to the miscarriage. There was no reason physically for the miscarriage to have happened.
This morning started out about normal. I knew that I had a doctors appointment today so I got ready and left. The doctor that I went to see was my old doctor. I was supposed to see a new lady but she was called out of the office so my old doctor took my appointment time for her.
The lab tests came back on twin B today. Unfortunately there wasn't much that the test proved. They proved that there was no abnormal defects in little Haylee. The tests couldn't determine what caused her heart to stop or if it had stopped prior to the miscarriage. There was no reason physically for the miscarriage to have happened.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Sunday Nov. 20th, 2011
Every little girl has a dream of what her wedding will be. She envisions what every detail will look like. She can tell you what her groom looks like in her eyes. She can tell you every detail of the wedding. From the dress she will wear to the colors she will choose to what the cake looks like. She knows how she wants every part of her dream day. A fairy tale wedding of her dreams. To be that princess at least for the day.
I've been married more times than I care to admit. Not once until now have I ever married because I loved the person. The wedding ceremony never matter to me before now. I didn't ever care where I would get married. I never cared about any details. All I wanted to do was get it over with. Until now.
I finally found the man that I had dreamed of when I was a little girl. All of those little details that I dreamed about now matter. This is the marriage that I know I will spend the rest of my life being thankful for. This is the marriage that matters to me. I have never been so happy in my life. I have never felt so complete.
So some of you may know that Jon and I are not yet married. I consider him my husband without hesitation. I love him with every thing that I am. We weren't able to have our wedding before he deployed. We wanted to but circumstances prevented that from happening at the time. Now circumstances are finally changing and we will have the wedding that I have always wanted.
I've been married more times than I care to admit. Not once until now have I ever married because I loved the person. The wedding ceremony never matter to me before now. I didn't ever care where I would get married. I never cared about any details. All I wanted to do was get it over with. Until now.
I finally found the man that I had dreamed of when I was a little girl. All of those little details that I dreamed about now matter. This is the marriage that I know I will spend the rest of my life being thankful for. This is the marriage that matters to me. I have never been so happy in my life. I have never felt so complete.
So some of you may know that Jon and I are not yet married. I consider him my husband without hesitation. I love him with every thing that I am. We weren't able to have our wedding before he deployed. We wanted to but circumstances prevented that from happening at the time. Now circumstances are finally changing and we will have the wedding that I have always wanted.
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