I've been sitting here thinking about what I wanted this blog to be about. Then I remembered the conversation that I had today that had a profound effect on me.
Miscarriages and what causes them.
I still have no clue what has cause me to miscarry 14 times in twenty years. The likelihood that I will ever know is slim. Having a conversation about pregnancy and the chance of yet another recurrent miscarriage made me stop and think just how many women do lose a pregnancy. So I went in search of answers. Unfortunately there really is no clear answers.
Some doctors believe that a Chromosome abnormality is a high cause of early miscarriages. Some believe that that abnormality is the cause of more than 50% of first trimester miscarriages. That seems like a very high number to me. Why isn't there testing to make sure that Chromosomes aren't causing a couple to lose their babies? Some studies say that the rate of chromosome abnormalities in women age 35 and older may be the cause of closer to 75% of miscarriages in women that have a history of recurrent pregnancy loss.
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Saturday, November 26, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
Monday Nov. 21st, 2011
The days just seem to keep getting harder instead of easier. I don't know how much more I can take right now. My nerves are shot. My heart can't take much more heartache. Each day that moves me forward also seems to knock me back a few steps. When does it start to get easier?
This morning started out about normal. I knew that I had a doctors appointment today so I got ready and left. The doctor that I went to see was my old doctor. I was supposed to see a new lady but she was called out of the office so my old doctor took my appointment time for her.
The lab tests came back on twin B today. Unfortunately there wasn't much that the test proved. They proved that there was no abnormal defects in little Haylee. The tests couldn't determine what caused her heart to stop or if it had stopped prior to the miscarriage. There was no reason physically for the miscarriage to have happened.
This morning started out about normal. I knew that I had a doctors appointment today so I got ready and left. The doctor that I went to see was my old doctor. I was supposed to see a new lady but she was called out of the office so my old doctor took my appointment time for her.
The lab tests came back on twin B today. Unfortunately there wasn't much that the test proved. They proved that there was no abnormal defects in little Haylee. The tests couldn't determine what caused her heart to stop or if it had stopped prior to the miscarriage. There was no reason physically for the miscarriage to have happened.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Tuesday Oct. 4th, 2011
Our loving little bundles of joy got off the throw-up button, now have found the hunger and potty buttons. Between running to the restroom every fifteen minutes and eating everything in sight, my days are full of babies!
Dinner tonight was a sight no one needed to witness. I ate a pound of sausage, two eggs, a biscuit, sausage gravy, two slices of bacon. Yes, I was hungry. I never get hungry, before babies I ate every two or three days. Now days it seems like that's all I do is eat. That's not a complaint at all, I'm happy to eat and gain weight as long as that means the babies will be healthy.
A few years ago, I was pretty over-weight. I weighed in at just over 200 pounds. I finally started getting a little self esteem back and started walking every day. I walked between five and ten miles a day. I lost 97 pounds in two years. I worked my butt off. I have never been happier with myself than I have been since losing that weight.
I feel better (most days) health wise and mentally as well. You don't realize just how badly you feel when you are carrying so much extra weight. My doctor wants me to gain 50 to 60 pounds. I am not sure about the amount he wants but I have no problem gaining 20 or 25 pounds. If I have to gain 50 or more, that just means a lot of walking after they are born.
The twins will be born via c-section. During the operation they will also be doing a procedure to prevent further pregnancies. Which will make walking a little more uncomfortable for the first few weeks.
On another note, I am starting my book back up tonight. I have five books in the works, and have put off working on them for months now. It's time that I get back in the swing of things. Which means a strict working environment and strict schedule of 5,000 words or more per day. My books need to be about 75,000 words when they hit the publishers hands. That way during editing things can be cut that need to be.
I'm working on getting one book ( a short story) printed soon. I can't wait to see my name in print on a book! I am so excited about that.
Jon,
Thank you for standing next to me when it comes to my writing. You fill me with encouraging words that are just what I needed to begin my work again. Thank you for your patience with me as I work on my blog posts while we sat and talked tonight. I know it is annoying when the person you are trying to talk to is paying attention to something else. I'm sorry I wasn't trying to ignore you at all. When the mood hits me to write I have found that I have to do so right then or I won't do it at all.
I love you and appreciate your understanding.
Betty
Dinner tonight was a sight no one needed to witness. I ate a pound of sausage, two eggs, a biscuit, sausage gravy, two slices of bacon. Yes, I was hungry. I never get hungry, before babies I ate every two or three days. Now days it seems like that's all I do is eat. That's not a complaint at all, I'm happy to eat and gain weight as long as that means the babies will be healthy.
A few years ago, I was pretty over-weight. I weighed in at just over 200 pounds. I finally started getting a little self esteem back and started walking every day. I walked between five and ten miles a day. I lost 97 pounds in two years. I worked my butt off. I have never been happier with myself than I have been since losing that weight.
I feel better (most days) health wise and mentally as well. You don't realize just how badly you feel when you are carrying so much extra weight. My doctor wants me to gain 50 to 60 pounds. I am not sure about the amount he wants but I have no problem gaining 20 or 25 pounds. If I have to gain 50 or more, that just means a lot of walking after they are born.
The twins will be born via c-section. During the operation they will also be doing a procedure to prevent further pregnancies. Which will make walking a little more uncomfortable for the first few weeks.
On another note, I am starting my book back up tonight. I have five books in the works, and have put off working on them for months now. It's time that I get back in the swing of things. Which means a strict working environment and strict schedule of 5,000 words or more per day. My books need to be about 75,000 words when they hit the publishers hands. That way during editing things can be cut that need to be.
I'm working on getting one book ( a short story) printed soon. I can't wait to see my name in print on a book! I am so excited about that.
Jon,
Thank you for standing next to me when it comes to my writing. You fill me with encouraging words that are just what I needed to begin my work again. Thank you for your patience with me as I work on my blog posts while we sat and talked tonight. I know it is annoying when the person you are trying to talk to is paying attention to something else. I'm sorry I wasn't trying to ignore you at all. When the mood hits me to write I have found that I have to do so right then or I won't do it at all.
I love you and appreciate your understanding.
Betty
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
OMG What News!
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| Just Found out this evening! |
That's right! Jon and I are the Proud expectant parents of twins! I just about fell out of the van when my doctor called and told me that there are two little bundles on the way. She then said that baby 1 and baby 2 are both in the same sack. Which for those of you that don't know what it means, the babies are going to be identical!
It is still too soon to tell if they are going to be boys or if they will fill our house with two more daughters. Either way is fine with me. I love the girls we have so much, two more would only be a bigger blessing. If by some miracle we are blessed with two sons, my heart will finally be filled. I have always wanted a son. Two would complete my family.
Three months ago I would have laughed at anyone that would have said to me; in three months you will be in love, engaged,married, and expecting twins. I would have laughed myself silly. It's funny how when you aren't looking for the right relationship, it just finds you. Before meeting Jon I thought I knew what true love was supposed to be like. Jon showed me that everything I had thought love to be, well I was so wrong. Love lifts you up. Not only in life but in your heart.
Jon has lifted my heart so high that I'm not even sure it is still in my chest at times. We weren't looking for love, we certainly weren't looking for a family larger than we had at the time. We definitely weren't looking to expand our family. I believe someone a lot higher than me, decided it was the right time with the right man.
Jon,
I love you so very much. Twins, you really do things better than most. LOL Thank you my sweet love for blessing me in all the ways you do. I can't seem to stop smiling now. Life is good.
I love you,
Betty
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Tuesday Sept. 27th, 2011
Busy, busy day today. My morning started out on just 4 1/2 hours sleep. Then it was internet searching for the best possible way to go from my home state of Illinois to my old state. Who would have known, when you are scared to fly the next best form of transportation is Amtrak.
Being afraid to death of heights, and very claustrophobic makes flying pretty much out of the question. Add in the fact of baby on board, not being able to take anything to help relax on a flight. Baby, means no drinking to help either. So, feet will be planted somewhat safely on ground even if that ground will be moving.
Even with my phobias if it came down to flying being my only option; I would hop on that plane so fast they would think I was attempting to fly it myself. Yes, if you want to know I am very excited to get to see my soldier before he leaves on his tour of Afghanistan.
Besides looking into the cheapest route of transport and trying to tie up some loose ends here, I have been a busy little rabbit today. School for the girls got a late start this year with trying to let them have as much dad time as possible before he left. So today we began getting all of their things ready for a super long school day tomorrow.
I have two that have decided they are ready to try "regular" public school next year. So that means making sure that we work overtime this year on their readiness for that. Our loving little monkey still prefers to stay home for the time being. I am happy to hear that, as having all three away all day five days a week next year would be heart breaking for me. They have been with me since the day they were born. I will miss having them all home, but I know that it is time to let them spread their wings somewhat so to speak.
Thankfully, grandma is here to take over their classes while I make my trip to see Jon. I have a lot of preparation ahead of me to make sure she has everything she will need during those almost two weeks I will be gone. I know they will be in great hands so I don't have that worry on my mind while away. Mom is a blessing to me and these girls. She has been right there since Jon had to leave, making sure that we are all okay even when she felt her world crashing around her at the time.
I know I will be leaning to mom to help me through this next year, and I hope that I am able to help her through it in return. It's not going to be easy on any of us while Jon is serving our country. With each others help we will survive though.
This trip to Texas to see Jon is keeping me focused on what needs to be done before I can travel. It keeps my mind off of the fact that he isn't here with me. I have so much to get accomplished before leaving. The travel arrangements, hotel, car rental, making sure the girls and mom and dad have everything they may need here; is a lot to focus on. That's okay, it's what I need right now.
My dear love,
being back in your arms next month is what I am happily thinking about everyday. I can't wait to feel your arms wrapped around me again. The look on your face when you see just how big our baby bump is getting will be priceless. Four wonderful days and nights of feeling your heart beat, of feeling your breath against my skin; is a slice of heaven I can't explain.
I look forward to just having your arms around me as we sit and talk. I miss our talks more than you can imagine. I love you my love
Betty
Being afraid to death of heights, and very claustrophobic makes flying pretty much out of the question. Add in the fact of baby on board, not being able to take anything to help relax on a flight. Baby, means no drinking to help either. So, feet will be planted somewhat safely on ground even if that ground will be moving.
Even with my phobias if it came down to flying being my only option; I would hop on that plane so fast they would think I was attempting to fly it myself. Yes, if you want to know I am very excited to get to see my soldier before he leaves on his tour of Afghanistan.
Besides looking into the cheapest route of transport and trying to tie up some loose ends here, I have been a busy little rabbit today. School for the girls got a late start this year with trying to let them have as much dad time as possible before he left. So today we began getting all of their things ready for a super long school day tomorrow.
I have two that have decided they are ready to try "regular" public school next year. So that means making sure that we work overtime this year on their readiness for that. Our loving little monkey still prefers to stay home for the time being. I am happy to hear that, as having all three away all day five days a week next year would be heart breaking for me. They have been with me since the day they were born. I will miss having them all home, but I know that it is time to let them spread their wings somewhat so to speak.
Thankfully, grandma is here to take over their classes while I make my trip to see Jon. I have a lot of preparation ahead of me to make sure she has everything she will need during those almost two weeks I will be gone. I know they will be in great hands so I don't have that worry on my mind while away. Mom is a blessing to me and these girls. She has been right there since Jon had to leave, making sure that we are all okay even when she felt her world crashing around her at the time.
I know I will be leaning to mom to help me through this next year, and I hope that I am able to help her through it in return. It's not going to be easy on any of us while Jon is serving our country. With each others help we will survive though.
This trip to Texas to see Jon is keeping me focused on what needs to be done before I can travel. It keeps my mind off of the fact that he isn't here with me. I have so much to get accomplished before leaving. The travel arrangements, hotel, car rental, making sure the girls and mom and dad have everything they may need here; is a lot to focus on. That's okay, it's what I need right now.
My dear love,
being back in your arms next month is what I am happily thinking about everyday. I can't wait to feel your arms wrapped around me again. The look on your face when you see just how big our baby bump is getting will be priceless. Four wonderful days and nights of feeling your heart beat, of feeling your breath against my skin; is a slice of heaven I can't explain.
I look forward to just having your arms around me as we sit and talk. I miss our talks more than you can imagine. I love you my love
Betty
Monday, September 26, 2011
Monday September 26th, 2011-- Doctor Day
Today was my first doctor appointment. The doctor agreed with my dates. It seems that I am due April 26th though. I was thinking more of April 30th. It's only four days.So anyway the doctor says:
Due April 26th
7 weeks today
baby is small measuring in at 5 weeks
heartbeat good
need to see a different doctor for the pregnancy.
That's all good news! She says that everything seems to be progressing fine.The reason for me showing already? Well, according to her I have a high fluid level. Which to me is excellent news since I usually have a problem with low fluid.
It's still too soon to get my hopes up yet, but I am getting more excited every day that everything is okay for baby.I'm still wishing that Jon would be able to have time at home around the delivery date. I would give anything to have him by my side to welcome our little one into this world. I know however that it is highly unlikely that he will be able to be here. That's okay, one of the nurses can film the delivery for me thankfully.
Either way Jon will be made a part of the miracle of life.
Jon,
You are such a huge part of my life. Every day we spend together (yet separated by miles) reminds me that you have to hold on to what you have because you never know when it will slip from your arms. My arms are always here waiting for you to slip back into them, right back where you belong. Thank you for the little miracle that we created together. I can't wait to see that smile on your face when you get to see him or her for the first time.
I love you my sweet husband,
Betty
Due April 26th
7 weeks today
baby is small measuring in at 5 weeks
heartbeat good
need to see a different doctor for the pregnancy.
That's all good news! She says that everything seems to be progressing fine.The reason for me showing already? Well, according to her I have a high fluid level. Which to me is excellent news since I usually have a problem with low fluid.
It's still too soon to get my hopes up yet, but I am getting more excited every day that everything is okay for baby.I'm still wishing that Jon would be able to have time at home around the delivery date. I would give anything to have him by my side to welcome our little one into this world. I know however that it is highly unlikely that he will be able to be here. That's okay, one of the nurses can film the delivery for me thankfully.
Either way Jon will be made a part of the miracle of life.
Jon,
You are such a huge part of my life. Every day we spend together (yet separated by miles) reminds me that you have to hold on to what you have because you never know when it will slip from your arms. My arms are always here waiting for you to slip back into them, right back where you belong. Thank you for the little miracle that we created together. I can't wait to see that smile on your face when you get to see him or her for the first time.
I love you my sweet husband,
Betty
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