Monday, May 21, 2012

Our lives

Being married is such a wonderful gift. Having a husband like Jon, is my gift from God. Everyone has issues come up in their lives that makes life difficult. If one is lucky, you have someone by your side that makes those things a bit easier to deal with.

Jon is that someone for me. I don't have any idea how I would face my life without his love next to me. I have days with my MS that I can't move much at all. Days where I feel like nothing is going my way. Jon is always right there with me, helping me in any way that I need help. Sometimes that gets annoying, but for the most part; I am blessed and know it.

There are days when I can't get out of bed. It's hard but unfortunately it is part of my life living with MS. Jon is always there to help me from room to room. I don't know how he manages to make me feel better on those days, but he always does.

Without him, I would have given up already. Where would I be without his help and his support? I don't know, but I can tell you it wouldn't be in a very good place. I am so blessed, our daughters are blessed to have a dad in their lives that love them the way Jon does.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Life is good

Things have been so hectic that I haven't had much time to post here.

After the wedding on March 12th, we moved five days later. Once we made it down to Texas, we set out to find a house. We had planned on living in El Paso Texas. Well things turn out the way they are supposed to. We ended up finding a house in New Mexico, just one and a half blocks from El Paso city limits.

The city we live in is very small. But we are like five minutes away from all kinds of shopping! We both work in El Paso, so we are always there. We adore the beautiful mountains that are all around this area. Jon knew how much I wanted to be able to go to the top of the highest mountain around. We had no idea how to get up there. Jon is persistent though, he kept looking until he found the way.

The view from the top of that mountain is so breathtaking! The girls and I loved every second on that mountaintop.

So things are still trying to be adjusted. When two people combine their lives, it can be difficult to adjust to one another. The adjustment period is going along, and we are starting to make things work out. I'm so happy that Jon and I met and fell in love. I am so in love with this man, I can't imagine what life would be like at this point without having him right beside me.

I'm slowly getting used to being married and not having to do everything for the girls alone anymore. Jon has been amazing with them, it has been awesome seeing them all opening up to each other.


 Our lives are only just beginning together. We have so much to look forward to.  I love you with every breath I take. There will be days when all we want to do is strangle each other. As we move forward, those days will become less. I am looking forward to our future together. I look forward to each new day and the happiness that will bring us.

I feel like I don't tell you often enough how proud of you I really am. You have not only shown me what an amazing man you are, but you have shown me the man you want to be.  You are an inspiration in many ways. I strive to be a better wife because you give me that inspiration.

I love you baby...

Sunday, April 8, 2012

I love my husband

Jon is an amazing man. He moved half way across the map, so that my MS wouldn't flare up so badly. He took on the responsibility of three daughters when he didn't have to. He married someone that more than likely won't be around more than a few years max.

Every day he makes sure that the girls and I have what we need. Even things we may not need but want. He takes the time to listen to me when I talk, that is a huge thing to me. Sometimes I don't have the words to put together to tell him why I am upset or hurt or whatever. He sits there and waits until I can try to piece enough words together to make him understand me.

No marriage is perfect, we all have our ups and downs. But when two people can talk through their issues, its as perfect of a relationship as you can get. Jon makes sure that we do just that. Yes we argue, but in the end we talk it out. We don't go to bed upset with the other. We always tell the other we love one another, because no matter what the day brings,we are in love with each other.

Jon my love -- I love you with everything I am. My heart and soul belong to you, my husband. No matter what we will face in this life, together we face it all. Thank you for being the husband that I have looked my entire life for. Thank you for loving me in ways I never thought possible. Thank you for being patient with me. I love you

Monday, March 19, 2012

It's official!

It is finally official! Jon and I are now legally married. We had the most special wedding I could have imagined. Jon looked amazing in his tux. I wore a white wedding gown for the first time ever. Our oldest and our youngest girls each sang a song during the ceremony. They did an awesome job! I am so proud of them for overcoming their fears of singing in public.

My good friend Dale is a minister so he performed the ceremony. Another friend is a photographer and offered to take our wedding pictures. My mother-in-law and sister-in-law did the cake. My father-in-law and brother catered our reception dinner.

Everything went over very well! I have never been happier in my entire life. Jon has been so amazing through all of my hysteria with wedding planning.

Four days after we were married we moved our new family from Illinois to Texas. It is one huge difference. We went from small hick town to huge metro area in a span of a two day drive. Jon drove the entire way and for the most part needed to be pried out of the truck at the end of our days drive.

We now live in a town where you don't have to drive two hours from home to go to a decent store. Instead you drive across the street to find almost anything your heart desires. Such a massive change. We are loving every second of our new hometown though.

Tomorrow we spend the day in search of our new home. Fun times. Can't wait to get settled and be able to finally relax.

I'll be back to posting more often as soon as I can after we get things in order again.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Another Day at home!

Yes that's right, another day at home! My sweet loving Jon is HOME! You have no idea how difficult it was to keep my mouth shut about him coming home. He has been home just two weeks now. We are still re-adjusting to having him home. And he is adjusting to being home as well.

We have just at three weeks until the wedding! I am so excited, I can't believe that we are finally going to be married. I never thought I would do the whole marriage thing again. But I am so very proud to know that he will be my husband until I take my last breath. I can not think of a better man to spend the rest of my life with. Jon IS the better half of my soul.

I don't know how much time I am going to have over the next few weeks for writing. So please forgive me if I don't keep this blog updated as often as I was before Jon came home. I will do my best to update as possible.

Monday, February 6, 2012

It's Been Forever

It feels like it has been forever since I posted anything here. My last post I made here, I wasn't dealing with my husbands deployment very well. Honestly it was hell during that week. Since that post, I have been running around with my head cut off so to speak.

My husbands grandmother/mother (long story) became very ill and passed away. I had to make a trip to Alabama for her funeral. I had a very difficult task of telling Jon that she was ill and another terrible task of telling him when she died. Having to tell him such bad news over the phone while he is still in Afghanistan was the most heart breaking thing I have had to do.

Now I have traveled across the US before, my first husband was a truck driver. I myself don't usually drive across country. This time though I had the girls with me and we drove from home to Atlanta GA. Then we had to go to Alabama. Last night we made the drive from Alabama back home. Eight hours in the rental van (which was totally cool) made me so tired.

The rental van was a 2012 Town & Country. It was completely decked out. Dual sliding doors that open and close at the push of a button. The back hatch door also operated with the push of a button. There was a built in LED flashlight! The seats; middle and back rows; folded into the floor. It had cup holders everywhere, it even had 110 volt hookups! We could plug my laptop in and let it charge going down the road. It had a built in DVD player too. We could upload music into the built in hard drive in the van so that we could have our own music. It had a built in backup camera, pop that baby in reverse and we could see on the screen what was behind us!

I fell in love with that rental van. It was THE bomb. Of course with so much technology it was pricey. I will never be able to afford such a luxury like that of my own. It sure felt awesome to be able to drive around in such comfort.

Anyway enough about the awesome van. We made it back home and only lost our way once. Which I thought was pretty darn good. We were so close to home when I somehow got turned around on the Parkway. I found my way back to the right direction after about thirty minutes. An eight hour trip took just over nine hours. Reason being, we stopped for over an hour and a half to have dinner. Otherwise we would have made it in under eight hours.

The girls are sitting enjoying their laptops right now. And I am doing some much needed catch up on my blogs. As for now, I am going to close  this post and try my best to get a decent nights sleep. It has been difficult in these last five months to sleep. I did have almost a week of amazing sleep while in Alabama though.

Until next time friends, take care.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

I'm so over this deployment

We still have a long way to go before we are supposed to see the end of this deployment. I am already so very tired of it. I'm so tired of Jon not being able to be home where he belongs. I'm sick to death of all the worry every day on if he is okay. I knew this would be difficult but I never imagined it would be this much hell.

I'm ready for Jon to be home, now. I hate not having him here where I know he is safe. Deployments suck.