Thursday, October 20, 2011

Thursday Oct. 20th, 2011

Jon being himself.

This is one of the many things that I love so much about Jon. He can just relax and be a kid at heart. He doesn't sweat the small stuff like so many other adults do. He knows how to sit back and enjoy life. I love that about him. There are times when it gets a little on the annoying side, like when I am trying to have a serious conversation with him. But for the most part, it's a refreshing change of pace.

Today has been one of those days where I haven't been able to get my energy level up. I went to bed super late. I woke up really late too. Once I finally rolled out of bed, I couldn't seem to get any motivation to do anything. By three I was ready to take a nap, but didn't. Here it is now shortly before seven and I have eaten dinner. I'm now totally exhausted but know that by ten or eleven tonight; I will finally have woken up. Then it will be a super late night yet again.

Oh the life of a night owl. It's great staying up late for me because the house gets really quiet and I have time to think. It's the time I use to be able to talk to Jon. I know he isn't here to listen to what I have to say, but in a way he is. He lets me talk without interruptions since he isn't here. I don't mean that as if he interrupts me when he is here. What I mean is, I can talk to him while he is gone and I can get everything I want to say out. I don't have someone yelling for Jon at the other end of the house. Most of the time, people pretty much leave me to myself. The girls included in that.

I get to sit and think, or work on my blogs. Sometimes I use my time to just sit and think about where my life has turned over the last few months. Trust me when I say my life has never been better. Honestly half the time I can't believe how much life has gotten so amazing. I never would have dreamed that life could ever be so fulfilling. It is truly an awesome feeling.

Today Jon has been really busy at work. I knew that he would be today, so I have left him alone. He called for a short minute or two this afternoon. He just wanted to check on me since I hadn't texted him all day. I just didn't want to get on his nerves as he was working.

I can't believe that my trip is coming so quickly. I still have a lot to get finished. It seems like I am packing to move, not go on vacation. Yes we women are bad about taking too much when we travel. Really though, I am only taking the things I have to take. Plus the things that he asked me to bring with me. Right now I have two bags packed into a third bag so that I only have one to carry. It however is very heavy so I may not do it that way after all. On top of my two bags inside that one, I also have a camera bag and tripod to take videos of Jon talking to our kids. I also have his cowboy boots and him a change of clothes as well. I can't forget that I also have to bring his cowboy hat. Yep I love it when he dresses as a cowboy for me, he fits that part well.

I haven't packed my shoes yet ( two pair are going in the bag with everything else) plus I have the dress I want Jon to see me in that first day still hanging up. So I have quite a bit to finish getting ready. Oh and I can't forget the external hard drive and the laptop. I'm going to need an extra six months just to make sure I have everything ready in time.

I hate packing, and other than to move I have never needed to pack for a trip. So this is new for me. The train ride is going to be new for me as well as leaving my girls behind while I go on this trip. I know they will be taken care of though. If I didn't know that I wouldn't leave them here. Grandma and grandpa are great with the girls though so I know they are in good hands.

Well, I guess I should end this blog post for now so that I can finish getting things ready. Problem is, I have no energy to get anything done tonight. Oh well, it won't hurt to wait a day or more LOL.


Before much longer I will be back in your arms again curled up next to you. I will be able to feel your heart beating next to mine.  I will be able to feel your breath against my skin. I will continue to look forward to the day when I can hold you in my arms and know that you won't be leaving again. Until then my love, be safe and well.

I love you,



Lea Johnson said...

Thank you mom for all your support. I love you and really I like the righting a book idea. It is so fun to work with you. With homeschooling it is so fun.

Thanks again. Love Lea.

Faith Rose said...

I love you too mom, I get my writing from you, you really know how to word what you write, its amazing. I love you and dad so much, the reason i wrote about boo tonight is, shes the cute little monkey and truly makes everyone happy. She gets that from you.


Boo Johnson said...

I love you mom I love your blog and YES grandma and grandpa WILL Take good care of us when you are gone

Betty Johnson said...

You girls are so sweet. Thank you all for your comments here. I'm so very proud of you all.

Love ya,


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